Peter teleports himself to Costa Verde. He's doing the right thing he tells himself. He wills himself invisible and walk up the driveway to her house and posts a hand written letter through the door.


( Letter hand written and hand delivered. )

He turns and walks away. He doesn't look back even if he did he wouldn't be able to see through the tears that have started falling.

[Filtered to Friends]

We've got it, our lead. Thing is can't trust anything these days and we can't afford to jepordise the mission. So this is going to be the last any of you hear from me for a while. I'm loath to do it but I need to save the world and it's best that nothing can be traced.

See you on the otherside.

[Private Entry]
Something I've learnt is that anyone who knows me is at risk and I can't keep risking Claire the way I have been. I should have been there for her and I couldn't. And I just can't stop the guilt

She won't talk about Sylar and what he did. How it must have been for her. I just get so angry that he was able to get so close to touch her...

She's safer for now with me undercover, I just don't know how I'm going to tell her. She isn't going to like it.

[Filtered from Sylar, Mohinder]

I moved on again this morning, thing is with having a killers face is that people want to arrest you.

I'm in the third new town and people are still eyeing me oddly. I've had to steal money, food just to get by.

There was some bad news this morning which doesn't look good, I need to get out of the area and quickly.

I'm in Sylar's body. I don't seem to have access to his powers and I don't know what this means.

I can't stay where I am I need to move.

[Filtered to Claire, Adam]
I think Sylar might be in my body. Claire get to Adam and stay with him. I need to figure this out.

[Filtered from Sylar, Mohinder]


( an ology? You got an ology? That means your're a scientist )

Richard and I are doing what we do best, sampling the best and worst in Motels this fine country has to offer.

I'm still reeling about LA really. I mean shit! A city just doesn't disappear.

The mission is on. Richard has been showing me the files we got and there are some interesting leads we're going to be following up in the not too distant future.

Other news, not much to say.

[Filtered to friends Filtered From Sylar, Mohinder]

Missing my family a lot, its not long until Nathan's birthday, would be nice to let him know his brother's still out there but I can't.

[Filtered to Claire]
You already know this but I'm missing you a whole lot right about now.

Just wanted to put it down somewhere.

[Private Entry]

It upsets Claire when I talk to Sylar, she worries. I wish she wouldn't. I know exactly what he is.

I shouldn't rise to the bait, Adam tuts at me and yeah its letting him in its how he operates.

Just trying to understand him, know your enemy and he is my enemy. Time will come and I'll have to face him again.

Because I'm the only one who can stop him.

I think I just had my first earthquake.

With stuff that's been going on I don't know I'm worried.

Oh fuck, Richard just turned on the TV.


[Filtered to Friends]

Anyone heard from Gwen today? Because I've got a real bad feeling about this.

[Filtered to Claire]

You ok? Call me please

Package for Claire.


A handscribbled note
One of Peter's T-shirts
A set list hoiked off the stage from the Ben Folds gig and signed by the band
some unusual candy
and a make your own cappucino kit

( Note reads in a fairly untidy scrawl )

[Filtered from Mohinder and Sylar]

Richard and I are travelling express up to San Francisco, I'm actually a little pumped about going out tonight, I can't remember the last time I went to a gig. And running into a few people there will make it all worth while.

Richard is looking a little excited too.

[Filtered to Adam, Claire, Gwen, Dean, Hakkai, Jou]

We won't be returning to Costa Verde after tonight, at least not for a while. I hate that, but the mission, that comes first, it has to.

[Filtered from Sylar, Mohinder]

1. Name something you don't have but really want.
Freedom

2. Name something you have but don't want.
Responsibility
( the rest under here because its long )


[Private Entry]

I've had to do a lot of hard thinking these last few weeks and I've come to a decision based on what my body has been telling me. Caitlin, she's still lost in that future and there are five facilities to infiltrate.

There is no clue as to where she is. Records in that future aren't being kept very well because there aren't the people to do it. Its an impossible task.

I don't think I'm going to be able to find her without sacrificing the mission.

And it kills me to say it, but the mission has to come first.

There's a chance once the mission is complete I'll be able to find her return her to her home but every time I've tried to help her things have gone wrong, I lost it, I panicked and I was dangerous. I've been trying in meditation to think through ways of helping her and it just doesn't feel like its the path I should be taking. I feel bad though but if I try and do this and it goes wrong again, there won't be a world to save.

I have to balance the needs of the world against what I want and it's hard and I wish to hell I never had to do it.

It hurts me to think like this but I don't know what else to do.

Then there's the staying at Claire's has brought home how much I miss my family. Her family unit is tight, sure they row and fight and argue over who should be emptying the dishwasher but they love each other and its plain to see. I miss Nathan and I miss my Mother. I've not spoken to them in months. Last time I saw Nathan he was unconcious and I've not seen my mother since before Kirby Plaza.

I can't contact them. I made sure Nathan was healed and I left, had I stayed the Company would have caught up with us. My family aren't perfect, but it doesn't mean I don't love them and it doesn't mean I don't miss them.

Then there's how do I reconcile what I feel for Claire with how I feel about Caitlin. Looking back its easy to see that it wasn't love, but I'm still responsible for her, like I should have been responsible for Simone.

All these people I've been close to and hurt or lost through who I am and what I do. At least Claire won't die, but I'm not able to be around with the mission happening at least not as much as I would like and it kills me that each time I leave her behind I'll be hurting her on some level.

I am that selfish it seems.

[Filtered to Jou]

God man I've seen the news, how is he?

If you want I can bring Claire...

Seriously let either of us know and we'll both be there.

[Filtered from Sylar, Mohinder]

Oh for the record: not doing Sam's TMI meme, there are a few lines I will not cross. That's one of them.

Yeah its been a while I know. Still in the same place, keeping an eyeout, reaching things down from top shelves and generally trying to be helpful. Its nice staying with a family that works. Mrs Bennett has gone from complete mistrust to just slight suspicion that I'm going to send Claire off to Nathan.

Its made me realise how much I miss my family not that I was living at home, but I saw them often. I hate not being able to contact them, but needs must and the mission comes first.

But apart from missing my family life is feeling good for the first time since getting my memory back. I've lost such a lot, time, freedom, an amazing friend, but now I've found something else renewed purpose and a very special kind of inspiration.

So weirdly enough this life on the road isn't depressing me as much as it should, this time out we've had, I'm finally in control and I've got a number of reasons to do what I have to do.

[Filtered to Adam, Gwen, Hakkai, Dean, Jounouchi]

Claire loved Chicago. We had a great time. I think the trip around the park in a horse drawn carriage was a good thing. So yes the source of my happiness.

[Filtered to Gwen]

Did she ever mention what happened with the cretin called Brody?

[Filtered from mohinder, sylar]
( Here be memeage )

[Filtered from Claire, Sylar, Mohinder] [Filtered to Adam, Gwen, Hakkai, Dean, Jou]

Seeing as Richard is going a-visiting I'm taking the opportunity to take Claire somewhere special. There's going to be so much time coming up when I'm not going to be there in the same vacinity I guess I just want to give her some good memories.

So the plan is this: I'm taking her to Chicago, we're going to see the city, see Millennium Park, go for a meal. In short be normal.

So Don't tell her I want the destination to be a surprise.